Twenty eight years of Nothing At All & then 2 guys in the same Week ..I am F*cked!!!
I am not sure if i should be happy or not..isnt this what I always wanted?!!..
isnt this Risk what i dreamt for all my life ?!!!
Isnt this what i saw in Movies (only it looked much more interesting) & wished to try at least once ?!!
Whyy the hell is it the 2 guys in the same week!
Yes they both dont care, since one is already married & am considered his Fun part Mistress!.. & The other one said it before, that he only want to have fun & don’t want any commitments, But should that still feel right for me?!!..…
I don’t Think Sooo! I feel like A ….!
I enjoyed the first one much more..since it was with my crush that i had for the past 3 years(on & off)..& he is now married.I never thought we ‘ll ever do that again after he got married..But it seems he still misses me “sometimes”!
It was the most extraordinary thing in my life!..We were doing it On The Go!.. In a Moving Car!..A real moving car without standing still for 1 sec!…& He was driving!…
It was Crazy & Fun & Extraordinary! I dont think I will ever have someone that crazy again in my life..that is ready to do an amazing crazy thing like that!.I was Really Happy After that.. He Always know how to make me happy unfortunately…even for” a Moment”.
The second one was the opposite!
He was very ordinary..He’s a guy I had a crush on once too..but then it just went away,.
He was here on A vacation & he invited me at his place..
I didnt enjoy it thattt muchh..it was just the experience of trying someone different than the first one ( because he was litterally my first in everything!)
I wanted to see if that was good already or if there is better!
But Definitely my first crush was different ! I guess because it contained more feelings..than the second .
I dont want to mention the unprofessional mistake the second one did..But anyways, I wishhh it doesn’t have any unprofessional consequences as well!
I feel really weired writing these words..I feel thats not me…Thats Another Girl I dont know who was tottally the opposite of that only 3 years Ago!
I neverrr thought I will ever have the courage to write these words!But Anyways, PEOPLE CHANGE, Isnt It ?!!