FED UP…!

GOD PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE….I am tierd..I am not happy & I can’t hide it anymore!

I  know that I am better than many other people..But YOu Know What I want !

I CAN’T HANDLE IT ANYMORE! I FEEL EXHAUSTED  & BORED & FAKE!

I AM FED UP WITH THE NONSENSE OF PEOPLE…OF FAKING EVERYTHING…

FAKING YOUR HAPPY, FAKING YOU LOVE PEOPLE AT WORK, FAKING YOUR ALRIGHT!

FAKING THAT I DON’T THINK ABOUT IT!! WHEN I DO! & YOU KNOW I DO SINCE A LONG TIME!!!!!

IT IS NOT ME WHO IS SUPPOSED TO GO SEARCHING FOR IT !!

IT IS NOT ME WHO CAN ACT IN A 2-FACED WAY & YOU KNOW THAT!!

WHY DO U KEEP ME WAITING FOR ALL THISSS TIMEEEEEEEE !

WHEN ALL I ASKED YOU ABOUT FOR A LONG TIME NOW IS THAT THING SPECIALLY!!

WHY EVEN NOT ONCE?!! WHY DON’T I FIND ONLY ONE FRIEND IN MY LIFE THAT CAN FILL THIS PARTTTTTTT ?!!!!!!!

& THE SARCASTIC WAY IS THAT, WHEN I FIND SOMEONE WITH ALL THE THINGS I LOVE, I FIND A

BIG DIFFERENCE BETWEEN US & FIND HIM USING ME IN A BAD WAY!

THE ONLY PERSON THAT I WAS INTERESTED ABOUT! R U THAT HARD AT TIMES ?!!!!!!!!!!

I FEEL STUPID FOR WRITING THESE WORDS, BUT IF I DIDN’T WRITE THEM, I GUESS I WOULD HAVE EXPLODED OR SOMETHING!

GOD I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY FED UP…PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE DO SOMETHING!

BUT DON’T PUNISH ME MORE .

Everything

Reblogged from :

You are the light to my soul You are my purpose You’re everything And how can I stand here with You And not be moved by You? Would You tell me how could it be any better than this? …

You’re all I want You’re all I need You’re everything, everything

 

And how can I stand here with You And not be moved by You?

 

Everything ~ Lifehouse.

Love This Songg... It Touchs Me everytime I hear it

When being Unfair Hurts..

The fact that all men say that they are players just because it is a Hormones thing, is a big nonsense!!
Come on guyss,Dont forget that women Have Needs toooo!!
if it is a Hormone thing, then women should have the right to flirt with a lot of guys too without being blamed.
Women need to feel appreciated, beautiful, sexy, loved . She needs to feel she is a princess!
she deserve to be treated well coz when she gives ; she gives a lot. When she risks , she also risks a lott!
She needs to feel gooood, She needs to feel a WOMAN.
A woman without those feelings is a sad , desperate woman.

Why men dont just get that ?!!!
They always think about themselves & about their needs onlyy when it comes to that!
They give the rights to themselves to play around , make out & flirt with every girl they find interesting…& then they call that girl a Bitch!!
Then when they start thinking of something serious , they of course wont think of the girl they had fun with…coz she is not a very Good girl remember! She is a Bitch!
But they will look for a straight forward girl , who dont drink, dont smoke & with no previous experiences to get married too.

They forget in all that, that women have Needs too. & that they probably didnt do the make out coz they r bitches, but simply because they need to feel loved! They needed to feel pampered…to Feel A Woman!

If your a Man, dont keep fooling around & giving all the rights to yourself, then taking it from the girls u know by judging them badly!
Just remember that, We r all humans who have Neeeeds, desires….& Hormones!

If u r a Woman, Dont feel offended all the time that ur being judged, you have needs too & rights!
But dont be as irresponsible as the guys , coz then u will not be able to blame them.

Happy 2012 ? Okk!

New Year’s is almost heree, I Should be going like YaaYYYY! But THis time I feel like saying ….mmm Ok!!

For the first time in my life I Don’t feel either Christmass Spirit or New Years Spirit!.

I Even don’t feeel like having any Resolutions in my mind for my new year.!
I Guess this year didn’t leave anything good to hope for :S!
I had A lot of Resolutions & a Lot of Plans to do  last year…But everyhtings Changed last minute!

I can’t deny that there happened some few good things, Like me starting my new Job in a nice international Company, & Proving my self a little. I have been introduced to a
totally different independent world of people ; Where everything u do , u do for Yourself only & No Body will Help you r support u on it .

But rather than that , I Don’t remember anything else that I want to remember or keep on doing this year.

I Even Don’t want to Remember what Happened last Year on New Year’s Eve!
It is So Painful to! & It’s all coming Back to me noww!

I feel that I have a lot of Potential that I don’t know where to direct it!

Let me Just Say with Celine Dion:
SO this is Christmass, & What Have you done?
Another Year Over… & A New one just Begun.
…
Let’s hope it is a good one…Without any Fear.

Merry Christmass & Happy New Year.

A Horrible Feeling!

I just realized It has been a long time since I last wrote in my Blog… & I also realized I wrote once in it since I started working!

I hate the feeling I am having now…It is a feeling of hating everything!  

A feeling of being LOST, not knowing what I want,Who I am , How to deal with people …Even who my Friends are & who my enemies are !!!
A Horrible Feeling!

I Don’t even know if I am the same person I used to be in the past or I am just another person !
If I want to be friends with same people or to know other people!
I started to be Fed Up with all People I know! Good & Bad.

Coz Good People are sometimes  TOO Good, which makes me Feel I am the Bad Girl Here!
& Bad People are too Bad that they just think & Care about  themselves only!

I may not be  a Good Or a Bad Person,  I am Neither too Good , Nor Too Bad!
I am a Girl who is seeking simplicity in Everything. In Life, In People , In work , In Relationships, In Everything.

I hate Complicated Life!
I hate Obstacles in life, Restrictions & Borders!

I Hate thinking about Every step in Life before doing it…..& I hate it too when I ruin something because I didn’t think before doing it!!

I hate it when  people take me for Granted …& I hate it too when they don’t need me! (Specially if I need them Badly

I hate it when I don’t Express what I feel to people I care about, & I hate it too when I do express it & they Don’t appreciate it!

I hate it when I am not close to God, & I hate it when I am too close that I don’t get the chance to make anything wrong.

I hate it when all what people want is keeping a link (Just to take what they want When they need it ) from me & then may be not care any more!

I hate Misunderstanding People because they have more than one face !

I hate being Misunderstood too from People Because I make things simply not concerned with  how they will take it .

I hate having to be a Double Faced , Twisted Person with some people, Because that is how they are!
I hate when I don’t get the chance to say all what I want to my family, Because I know they will not accept the truth, But will accept only Half of it!

I Hate…I Hate …& I Hate Routine work!

Goshhh , I didn’t think I will have all that Hate in me one day!

I never Hated AnyOne..I don’t think I Will.

I hope that Feeling don’t last for too Long.

The Notebook

I have always Wondered about all the things they say about love in the Movies ! That “With Every Great Love..COmes A Great Story”

Is it that real ?!
Can  it be that Strong? (THe Passion ?..The Heattt ?…THe Excitement ?)
Can it do Miracles like they say ?!!! OR that is just in Movies?!
My Problem is : I DOn’t Know! I never experienced love THAT WAY!

I may have had few crushes, But Never real Love….(I wonder when I i will!)

After Watching the Notebook Movie today, Part of me tells me: Yes It is That Trueeee & Can be that Strong! It can last Forever & Ever  & they Can Live Happily Ever After
BUt the other part tells me : Noppp it is just the MOvie! THey need this just to make a good Movie….THis is ONE in a Ten Million!

If Everything in this life is Going about Love (Movies, Songs, Marriage, sex…), Then it must be something real …
But is it THAT REAL like in the Movie?!…I wonder!

Does it EXist THAT WAY ?! Will I Find Someone like that who will love me Forever & Ever , will fight for me , & I will be ready to take riskss & fight for him , Just to Be with Him ?!!!…

Will we Die Together , just for the sake of not being able to live life without each other ?!

OR Life will just Ruin Everything Good , & Mess things Up like it does with Everythings!
Too Many Questions , With No Answers….I WIsh I could answer them one day. :)

Why The Fear ??!

 

This topic has come to my mind a lot before ..but I never thought of writing about it until today;after having a conversation with one of my friends about relationships & commitment.

I decided that I want to write about it …May be that will help me not think about it any more.

I Have always wondered about: Why a lot of People (specially Men ..with all my respect ) fear about being committed ??! Why do some of them just “Freak Out” when they think of the word “Marriage” and all what comes with it of meaning ?!

Of course some women do too ..But Women are always more ready for Sharing ,Starting a family & being responsible for a home & children.

Even in the Movies ! (specially the american ones ) …
Two people may love each other very much, they are happy with each other , They even may live together & do things together … They Almost Share Everything together!

But once one of them start thinking about marriage & Commitment ..ohhhh No! They start Freaking out & Going back to not being ready !! (what the …?!!)

What I really mean here is that Life is all about being Committed to many & different things.

I see it as follows:

-Any one who has a family is Committed to his family (whether his father ,Mother, brothers, sisters ,cousins….etc ) …He/she just can’t come one day & say: Sorry that’s enough..I am bored of being part of this family & I will search for another .

-Any one who Love his job is committed to his job & to the Company he is working for.

(May be some will tell me that Committed = Forever…& no one will stay in his same job or company like Forever !…But I tell u It is Definitely a kind of Commitment).

-Any one who has Friends , Is also Committed to his Friends to some extent.

-Even someone who is Doing a Project /Assignment at a company ,College or Even A Personal one , He/ She is Committed to that Project till it is finished!

- A Church you go to all your life, A school , A University….You will keep on saying: That is MY CHURCH..MY School & MY University that I graduated from …It just will remain with u for the rest of your life. …………………..Isn’t that a Kind of Commitment?!

Measure upon that a lot of things that we do everyday of our lives…We will find that Life is ALL About Commitment but may be with different ratios.

So returning to our Question …Why the Fear of commitment when it is around us in different figures & different shapes ?!

I don’t think that I am the only one who sees it that way ..But I will also appreciate it if someone has different opinion than mine …I will be happy to hear it.

Is it about Maturity ?!…

Is it about Priorities in Life ?! …

Is it about taking the right decisions at the right time ?!…

(Although I never believed about Knowing Exactly what’s the right time to do anything because life is really unexpectable!. )

Is it about bad experiences that people hear or see every day around them ?!

Is it a Psychological thing ?!

I really don’t know…I wish I would find out one day..

That’s just a little brainstorming that happened to be going in my mind today.

Thanks to my friend … because it has been a while since I last thought of something to write about in my Blog.

My 50th post :)

It has been a while since I last wrote in my blog..I don’t know if this is a good thing or bad thing actually !

The reason for that is because I mainly write (or let me say I write a GOOD Article) only when I feel down or sad.  So that make “Not Writing” for a while means that things are going just fine & I don’t feel bad about anything to write about .
Although that’s not right, I do feel bad about some things going on these days.
I even don’t know if I really want to document this or not!

This new year has been the strangest new year ever in my life!… But Unfortunately it has been strange in a bad way & not a good one. 

I just wakep up on the first day of the year on the news of an accident & unfortunately the death of a friend…& that friend was going to be the fiance of my cousin in a week !! (a Harsh start isn’t it ?!).

I was planning to attend it differently… A Dish Party at one of my Friends’ homes with all of my friends that I haven’t seen for a while gathered there .
But it didn’t go that way… It ended up with me travelling to visit my cousins & support them for the friend & the finacee they lost on their very first day of the year!

God it was hard!

It just don’t come to our minds that death can be so close at this young age ! (I don’t want  to seem so pissmistic but unfortunately it is true).

May be we just have to be remembered every once in a while that Life is really short ..& that Our Original place is not here on Earth, but there is  Really A Better Place way  Beautiful than this one ..

All we  have to do is prepare ourselves to Be Ready when it is time……….. & when our time comes.

“Made of Honor”

I love this movie so much ..I feel it so much that I sometimes feel that My life will be so much like this movie.!

I have always been concerned,worried & thinking  about loving the wrong person.!

Getting attached very much to someone & knowing everything about him …He being My Best Friend ..But at the same time being worried that he might not feel the same ..So I just stick to being friends because I don’t have another option!!
At the same time, a very Suitable guy comes to me , tells me he likes me & that he want to propose for me.
And I don’t have 1 Single reason to refuse him because he is MR.Perfect in everything!!

So I may accept him because he is the one who CARED more & was Brave enough to tell me I like U, I want U & I LOve U !
But Will I Forget my Best Friend at that time ?!! Will I forget that I had feeling for him one day?!!
I know at that time ,we will not be that close anymore…because my Fiancee Shall be My best Friend then!

B ut what if he wasn’t as close as My old best Friend? What if he didn’t know, Appreciate ,care for every detail that I used to tell my best Friend ?!
yes he is Mr. Perfect in everything But may be not for ME!
I really wish that won’t happen for me  & if it did , I wish it will be alll cleared out at the suitable moment like in the movie …Although it will be so hard in my case!

N.B: I love the Couple in the movie very much ..they are just a perfect match for best friends & lovers…..I wish that will be the same for meeeeeeee ! Pleaseeeeeee God.

I  WISH  from the bottom of my heart  that My lover Be my” Best Friend “before being my Love =).I don’t want to just get engaged to the first person who proposes to me just For the Sake of Getting Engaged or Married!
IF I waited all this time …I wish that it will be for Love first before anything else..

I Truely wish that I find “My Lost 2nd half” ..not Just A Suitable Person for Me.

Rejected Heart…

I have always been inspired by Quotes of famous people & Quotes from movies & so on…But for the first time in my life
I feel now that all these Quotes are just Words !

They don’t mean more or less than words that are too Ideal to be applied !
I don’t know why I am saying this or why I feel like that..or may be I do but not sure or don’t what to spit it out!!

I have a strange feeling of being “rejected” or in other words not loved nor hated ! …just rejected .

I Do Care about people & I do love them but I realized something that may be a big Negative point in me..I can’t love or give without a little bit of return!

I can’t love for the sake of  love!……( although that is one of the simpliest  Commandements that God ordered us to do)
I can’t keep on giving without the other person that I give ,gives me. (even if it is less but it may be enough for me).
Although I know that it is better ” not to fall in love” at all Than having a” Broken Heart “but I still want Love.!
Also I am sure that me being a sensitive person may break me down to pieces if I fell in love for the wrong person or the wrong time..I still can’t stop thinking about wanting someone badly & Thinking (even for a while..) for every person I meet & like , if he can be suitable for me as a partner or not!!

God,I do trust you as u say ..That you may be doing this for my own sake not anyone esle…& you may be protecting me from many things that i may not be able to stand or Handle…But Sometimes I can’t stop thinking & u know it. I know that is partially my problem because I stopped being occupied by you from the inside as before..But, 
You Know I am a Weak person ,I can’t do anything on my own !!! Please help me ! Or Send me someone to Help me.

Adore or Ignore ?!!

It is really shockingly true!
I don’t know much to say now about that but this Quote is Really coming just on time…It is how I feel right now  exactly after coming back from visiting One of my best  friends…Or I ”Consider” him as one of my best Friends while not feeling the same from him!

It is really a strange complicated feeling!
We talk a lottttt…we can stay chatting together for 5 or 6 Hours ! We speak about EVERYthing,People, Filming,Photography,Religon,Love Experiencces,Politics,Memories, Concept of Marriage, Divorce ,His friends & my friends…almost Everything!
Even that it sometimes feels Silly & ridiculous at the end that we spent all this time just Talking…But that doesn’t mean that I don’t enjoy talking to him…Unfortunatly I do …& Unfortunatly too he is the only boy from my friends whom I like to chat with!
Whom I feel MYSelf when talking to him …Although there are a lot of things that I don’t like about him,,,& he is totally my Opposite in so many things! That is one of the things that makes it confusing.

That’s only when we r Alone or chatting online or on the phone.
what makes me feel strange is that it is not the same when we r in the middle of a large group…It is not that easy to talk with him..& same about him! as if we r Secret Friends!!!
He Don’t admit it in front of many people  that we r close Friends :S…or at least that’s how I feel!

I try to be a good Friend in many ways…I know about 95 % of his friends & about 85 % of his life!
That’s because he talks a lot & I listen a lot …I doubt that he knows the same about me …but much less!
 He loves people that don’t care about him the same way as I do..!

On the other side, I ignore some people that seem to like me & ready to do things for me…& don’t do the same that I do with THAT best friend….what do u think This Is ?!!!
Stupid isn’t it ?!!! Disappointing may be too :S

I know it is not a big deal ..& I am not in pain …But it is really Confusing & makes me wonder is it worth it or not ?!!!!

Lessons from life…

I Just found those lessons or Quotes from life in a site & I liked them & felt them very Much…
I thought about sharing them or in another word Recording them for me to remember them …
Here they are:

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch!
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.
8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.
12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.
35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

I hope that u like them as much as I did… =)

“Will You Be There”

“Will You Be There”

Hold Me
Like The River Jordan
And I Will Then Say To Thee
You Are My Friend

Carry Me
Like You Are My Brother
Love Me Like A Mother
Will You Be There?

Weary
Tell Me Will You Hold Me
When Wrong, Will You Skold Me
When Lost Will You Find Me?

But They Told Me
A Man Should Be Faithful
And Walk When Not Able
And Fight Till The End
But I’m Only Human

Everyone’s Taking Control Of Me
Seems That The World’s
Got A Role For Me
I’m So Confused
Will You Show To Me
You’ll Be There For Me
And Care Enough To Bear Me

(Hold Me)
(Lay Your Head Lowly)
(Softly Then Boldly)
(Carry Me There)

(Lead Me)
(Love Me And Feed Me)
(Kiss Me And Free Me)
(I Will Feel Blessed)

(Carry)
(Carry Me Boldly)
(Lift Me Up Slowly)
(Carry Me There)

(Save Me)
(Heal Me And Bathe Me)
(Softly You Say To Me)
(I Will Be There)

(Lift Me)
(Lift Me Up Slowly)
(Carry Me Boldly)
(Show Me You Care)

(Hold Me)
(Lay Your Head Lowly)
(Softly Then Boldly)
(Carry Me There)

(Need Me)
(Love Me And Feed Me)
(Kiss Me And Free Me)
(I Will Feel Blessed)

[Spoken]
In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tripulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I’ll Never Let You Part
For You’re Always In My Heart. 

(Michael Jackson)

N.B: I was really Touched by this song today!……It is really Wonderful Music, Lyrics, Meanings  & of course Voice & Performance Of The AMAZING king of Pop Michael Jackson. You were Really A Great Talented Loved Man.

U will Alwaysssssss be the King Of Pop …whatever Happens!!!
God Bless Ur Soul.

Life is too short…

   Don’t get Pisimistic after reading this post’s title..& decide u don’t want to read the post….beacause I am not telling     that in order to make u feel down. ..Absolutly!

 I am saying that in order to just let u think once & twice before u become angry with someone or start hating someone for  any reason…whether it is a good reason or a simple & tiny reason!

Before u decide that u r angry with that person & that  u will never talk to him/her again…. U will never take the first step to apologize ……Just ask ur self these simple questions:

what will u ever benefit from  that ?!! 

 what if something really bad happened to that person the next day u decided u will not talk to him again ?!!! will u feel happy?!

Or will u really regret it that u did this…& that the last thing he remembered about u was; that you told him u hated him/her & u r not friends anymore …?!!

 
I assure u that it is really NOT WORTH IT !
It all goes very fast ….everything in life !
One second u r totaly healthy & u like it ………& suddnely …..atchooooooo ….u catch a cold ! (& that’s the simplest that can happen)
Another u r driving ur car safely in the street ….& suddenly and unexpectedly….u make an accident !
One minute ur friend is calling u on the phone & u don’t want to pick up because u r mad at him …….& the minute after u hear he did an accident after he hanged up on u!

It all happens in seconds really! & no body can prevent it.
It happened to me more than once….& every time it happens …I can’t believe it is happening again!
& I am really afraid that next time it happens with someone really close to me…& something really bad!

So, This is to remind myself before reminding anyone of you…..that Life is really too short to be made at anyone….it is really not worth it to hate people….it is not worth it to be even angry at them!
Anybody can leave this world at any second…& when it happens neither me/you nor the person that I am mad with will be happy about it..

Last thing I want to say about this ,is “YOu never Lose by loving,You always lose by Holding back”.

Try to remember always the beautiful verse from the Bible that says  ”Love Never Fails”.

Never Let Go of Ur Dreams !

I have always wanted to have a dream to follow…Something to be inspired with..SOmething to hold On to!
I guess that dreams sometimes play a big role in directing people’s life or shaping it.
Having a dream that u want to achieve is like drawing a path that u want to follow… Sometimes this path is a hard one , Sometimes it is an easy one, BUT what matters the most is that: Are U Strong Enough to hold on till the end, till u achieve it ?!!
Or after one, two,or three problems u start to surrender, fall & don’t want to continue ?! 
I guess we all have sometimes that we don’t want to continue, we become weak enough to stand again & continue our path! May be even we cry from the stress or the load of the path , & What we choosed before became what we may refuse now . 
Here Comes the role of your Beloved Ones …may be it is a father, a mother or a brother, Or a dear friend.
They are the ones who puts u again on ur track . They are the ones who can give u a PUSH in ur way in order to be able to continue.

But there is Also another very important One that I must not forget ! It is God ! 
Whether u Really believe in it or not , it is trueee that if u tried to continue your way to your dream or goal alone , it will be very Difficult & Nearly  IMPOSSIBLE!
But if u have someone to trust in, depend on, be sure that will guide u & help u …it will really be much easier! 
That’ not just a theoritical talking …That’s based on more than one experience in my life.
U may say so why then not to depend on just a friend or a family member ?!!
I will tell u that whoever u depend on, will not give u the support or the inner peace given by God..& u can easily try it !
Besides people can easily  disappoint u. …They may  Get Busy in their lifes that they aren’t free for ur problems ,Or  Simply they stop caring & then u will not be able to force them to help u !  

But God will never get busy & will never stop caring …He  may let you experience some problems or some  pain for a while ..but Be Sure that’s always for a reason….& in many cases it is for a good reason not a bad one !(Believe it or not!)Because I believe very much in the Quote that says ” God Doesn’t Play Dice!”.

So, whenever u Feel Tired & can’t continue any more , Just Remember that GOd is Always there waiting for u to tell Him : Please Help!

 JUST NEVER LET GO OF YOUR DREAMS!

That’s What I need to remember Specaily right now !

I am saying it God, Please Help me …I need u!

Jesus is our Saviour and not Santa!

Santa lives at the North Pole.

JESUS is everywhere.

Santa rides in a sleigh

JESUS rides on the wind and walks on the water.

Santa comes but once a year

JESUS is an ever present help.

Santa fills your stockings with goodies

JESUS supplies all your needs.

Santa comes down your chimney uninvited

JESUS stands at your door and knocks.. and then enters your heart.

You have to stand in line to see Santa

JESUS is as close as the mention of His name.

Santa lets you sit on his lap

JESUS lets you rest in His arms.

Santa doesn’t know your name, all he can say is “Hi little boy or girl, What’s your name?”

JESUS knew our name before we did. Not only does He know our name, He knows our address too. He knows our history and future and He even knows how many hairs are on our heads.

Santa has a belly like a bowl full of jelly

JESUS has a heart full of love.

All Santa can offer is HO HO HO

JESUS offers health, help and hope.

Santa says “You better not cry”

JESUS says “Cast all your cares on me for I care for you.

Santa’s little helpers make toys

JESUS makes new life, mends wounded hearts, repairs broken homes and builds mansions.

Santa may make you chuckle but

JESUS gives you joy that is your strength.

While Santa puts gifts under your tree

JESUS became our gift and died on the cross.

It’s obvious there is really no comparison.

We need to remember WHO Christmas is all about.

We need to put Christ in right place during Christmas.

Jesus is still the reason for the season!

On that Special Day, Remember to say:

Happy Birthday Dear Jesus:)

(N.B. the article is coped ..not mine!)

At The end ,I don’t mean that we should Hate Santa & not love him …No! I Loveee Santa
but Sometimes we get mixed up & Forget what the real reason for Christmass is about..That’s just to remind us …& ME in the first place.

Empty!

I don’t know why I don’t have in my mind now except this word….Empty!!
I don’t have something to say or describe…I even don’t have something to write!
I feel that I don’t feel anything…I don’t feel happy & I don’t feel sad.
I don’t feel loved nor I feel hated.
As if every feeling became fake like people!…
U fake happiness sometimes when u see someone…U fake loving someone…U fake missing someone… U fake enjoying something with people…Even u can fake Caring!
I know that all of that is bad & not the right think to do …& Unfortunatly I know that by heart & I wish I don’t do it.
But sometimes, Some people force you to do that…whether they mean to force this or not..BUt they force you to act in a way that’s not yours!
But there is an important Question here that I wish I can find an answer to it…..Should me act with people according to what they really deserve & don’t deserve ?? Or we should act with them according to who U are ?!!
For example, if  someone is sick ..& this someone don’t care very much about u …Do u ask about him because he deserve it (or because he ask in return ?) OR you ask because U care about people & u r a good person who want to make a difference with people ?!!!!
That’s a question that really bothers me a lot…I wish i could find an answer for it!

I wish I could know what exactly that I want?!….I wish I could put everything in my life in a 1 ,2,3 steps…..in a manual that don’t change…

Memories!!

Memories are the best  things that can happen to someone…

Have u ever asked urself ,why Did God gave us the gift of Memory ???!!!

They may be sometimes good ones and other times bad ones…but at the end even if they were bad ones,when u stop and remember them,u must see something that u didn’t see before.
May be u can see how tough u were in this situation!
OR for example, u see that u learned a lesson that u didn’t learn before and  u weren’t going to learn it except the hard way!!

Some memories are life time ,& others are just a short time memories.
For example, some of my memories that I want to remember all my life is my first day at school .
I remember how I looked and how I was happy about it ( the opposite of  many other children ..huh?!:D).
I remember my pinkish school uniform and my black snikers shoes…I remember Mammy photographing me to send 
the picture of my first day to my dad coz he was travelling ..I remember that photo it was in the balcony of my grandma’s house.
I remember also my first day at university…I was wearing a strapped blue body & a blue jeans and high heels talon(& that was my last time of wearing high heels at uni ).I remember that my uncle drove me to uni early and I was tottaly lost & don’t know what to do!..I waited for sometime untill I found that friend of my cousin who showed me arount the place and got me my schedule.

I remember also my Admission day at university. I was wearing a Pink Polo shirt, a short  pants jeans and a pinky jeans shoes.My hair was hanged in a ponytail & it was dark & long.
I remember how I was amazed by the place at first.It was really amazing. Also that I was treated like a VIP person..this made everything more perfect:D.( I knew after that ,that it bugged some of my TO BE friends in uni that was there on the day…but it also was a nice memory to remember for the rest of my life:D)
I remembered going to the library to make the online admission application,and then waiting for my addmission exam to take it.Then I was accepted !!

I remember the first Concert at uni…it was the besttt.
Lots and Lots and Lotsss of Memories…. I wish I could write them all down!!..I really wishhhh.
All these are Good Memories…What about bad Memories?!! Do I need to remember them?!!
May be not all of them coz sometimes bad memories don’t bring something good except saddness and grief…
I just ran through a Quote that I loved so much..it says that “God will not give u a burden that U can’t handle, if u ever find urself in a mess which seems impossible to resolve,Take it as a compliment …God thinks U Can do it “

To Be Continued…

I need to understand u!!!!!!!!!!!

I just wanna understand,
Coz it is becoming complicated to stand!

Coz ununderstanding is killing me,
it is tearing -apart me.

I just feel hurt from nothing,
I feel confusedddd of something!!!!

I know that I don’t love u..
& I know that u don’t love me too,
BUt I want to understand where am standing with u ?!

U seem u don’t wanna look in my eyes..
& u are not giving me any cluesss,
at the times that I wanna look in yours.

Everything seems cold between  us,
even worse that 2 who don’t know each others .

What is making me mad is that,
u gave me many things very quicklyy that,
it didn’t take us time to know each other..
BUT as soon as u gave it to me,
u took everything again so quicklyyy.

 
When am around u ,I feel weired!
I guess if I love u ,I must feel cheered.

BUt that’s not always the case,
I don’t feel happy..I don’t smile as I do,
I keep thinking & thinking & thinking in everything u do.

I keep wondering from ur rude reactions,
I simply don’t do things to deserve these actions!

WHy are u that coward to announce it to me?!!!!!
why are u that weired to face it & tell me?!!!

I know that I am also being coward to face you,
but that’s because I am supposed to be the weak person and not u.!

Even if I thought of  facing you ,
I am sure that u will tell me I don’t mean you, 
it is like that with all the other people around u,
& it is just time that changes me & changes you.

Does it have a meaning?.. ..that u don’t love me
 or u want to deliver a message… Like stop caring for me?!!

I don’t know,
& it is killing me not tooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really need to understand youuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!.

 

P.S: That is my first trial everrrr of  writing a poem….So Please I need your opinions very much.

LOVE IS…

WOW…time is flying by !!!! it has been a long time since I last wrote something …it said last time was April 30 & it wasn’t me who wrote the article even …I was just sharing it.

Time to write somthing new,right?!!
But what should I write ?!!?!?!?!

Something about swine flu?!….!No ,No …enough about it …mmmm Something about failure ?!!! no no no I already wrote that ….mmmmmmm Something about Love ?!!! …..may be!…. although all Blogs are full of Love articels…BUT,I guess that whatever happens people will not stop writing about it.

Love is …..Complete the missing word!!
you will ask me Is that it ?!?!?!?  YOu can’t be serious?!!
I will tell  you that …it is a Very Big Powerful word …it can’t be defined easily or said in few words. But, Unfortunatly many people don’t understand it the right way ..

Many people think that love means going from a relation to another…..dating to have fun….Kissing & even having sex!!!
Media production focused it in that way in most of people’s mind..& not media only …I guess there are many people who think of it this way in the first place!!

But have u ever thought what is the realllll meaning of Love?!!!!!!!!…
What U ever thought why GOD created this Love Feeling in us?!!!I have thought about it a lot & I guess I will never understand all the meaning of this word..I wish I could!
what I can say is:

Love is  Desire  to Give non stopabale….!                                                                        
Love is Sharing everything …everywhere and anytime!
Love is Caring !
Love is Missing people!
Love is Feeling happy when u see the person you love…in any condition!
Love is forgiving  and understanding!
Love is Listening!
Love is Giving excuses to the one you love not the opposite!
Love is prioritizing (giving priority)the person u love over yourself!
Love is helping!
Love is Smiling always!
Love is being gentle and kind!
Love is Patient!
Love is Passion!
Love is Fear on You!
Love is Cheer!
Love is Connection!
Love is Communication!
Love is Being Happy when ur loved one is happy and Sad when he’s sad…not coz u pitty him/her!
Love is Great Power that can do what can’t be done!
Love can be THE GREATEST thing in this world but it is the HARDEST too!
Love is……..a Word that is indescrible!

Of Course THE Love I mean is not between a boy or a girl …a man or woman only!! It is between family members……between brothers and sisters….between Friends and Colleagues and Neighbours!
Really this word has a lot of power in it ….if only People can think about it & don’t think about theirselves only!!
this world would have been a very Different and Wonderfl Place.

I just wanted to share this little word…May be I can make a difference ….Cause I believe that everybody can make a difference even if it is for only one person in this world.
If anybody have something to add I will be happy if u shared it too