Fading Away…

I Dont know if my feelings for him started to fade away on their own, or it is just the fact that i didnt see him in a week.

He is travelling with his wife for a week now on a diving trip..I thought of him more than once, But I know I cant contact him.
I guess I miss him, But not the same way i used to before. May be because i understand better now or may be because i dont want to ruin his life also..He is still someone i care for ..A Lot! (Unfortunately)
Also the book is one of the reasons am thinking about him..the amazing sex in the book make me think of him all the time..I dont imagine myself having it with anyone but him..& him only.
The unfair thing is he might be having sex right now with his wife & am sitting here..Reading..Burning with passion..untouched.. & intact .. thinking about him !!